It feels awkward and wrong being Roman Catholic now, which is a shame because this form of religion taught me how to love and gave me advice on how to be a good person. However, as someone who so severely wants to and will become a mother one day, I cannot continue practicing a religion that hid abuse and failed to protect children. Children belong to everybody because it is them that molds our future planet, and in all honesty our galaxy. Our pollution affects all other planets.
I cannot practice Roman Catholicism anymore after it was revealed that the Pittsburgh Diocese went to great lengths to cover the most horrific form of child abuse. I was being raised in this very diocese and I feel betrayed, disgusted, manipulated, but mostly disgusted by their actions. I remember watching videos from Bishop Donald Wuerl when I was child. I am pretty sure he was one of the many priests present for my confirmation. I am both shocked and horrified at the aims the Roman Catholic Church took to cover up the sexual abuse of even one child, let alone thousands. The Catholic Church is in a state of crisis. I admit that I was a flexible Catholic and did not share in some of the beliefs and practices. Whatever the case may be, I am still a Catholic. Luckily for me, God is unbreakable and so is my faith. I know that these malicious attacks on children, followed by a massive attempt to keep dark predators in their paths is unimaginable. However, this is our reality and it is one that man, not God created. I believe in God. I love God. I put my faith and trust in God. Now I have a dilemma, which is where to I show my own gratitude to God. I cannot do that in the present Roman Catholic Church. Why forbid marriage? That was only one believers form of believing. Why make a law that was meant to be broken? The original popes never obeyed that rule. They hung out with the Medici’s and other rich and broken families. People are filled with the Holy Spirit. I believe all of us are. Why shade our different and vibrant versions of this Spirit through dark and muted clothing colors. The question the Roman Catholic Church needs to ask itself is, “What would God want us to do?” The only way to overcome this crisis is through change. I am no longer a Roman Catholic regardless of what changes are made. I will never raise any of my children in the Roman Catholic Church. I am sorry Father Gentile, you are the best priest. It is the institution of Roman Catholicism that deprived my children of my faith. I will still visit Catholic Churches in Italy because they are beautiful. Thankfully it is God and not to a church or a man that I pray to.
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